A Little Letter for a Big God 🌟



To: Jesus


Hi, Jesus! Happy birthday! I don't know how to start, but I just want to say thank You for Your sustaining grace that has carried me throughout this year. Thank You for helping me and for always being present, especially on my bad days.

It's Your birthday, and I'm still thinking about what gift I should give You. But, I'm going to be honest, this December feels a bit different. For the first time, I've felt something restless inside me (I don't even know if that's the right word).

I know this season is about You, yet I still feel lost. I feel like distant, stuck. I just want to understand what's going on with me. Maybe I'm simply tired, or maybe it's just a girl thing, that time of the month.

I woke up late this morning, still feeling drained. My mother and little brother were busy preparing for later's Noche Buena. Meanwhile, here I was, wondering why something felt heavy in my heart, a burden that kept stirring within me.

But peace came easily when I opened my Bible and read Your Word. I was reminded that this season is about the baby born into the world to be our Savior—that's You, Jesus.

I realized I had almost focused too much on my emotions and the circumstances around me, to the point where I wanted to escape again. I don't want noise. I just want quiet. I want peace.

Yes, that's me this December, while everyone else is busy with their preparations. (Although… I don't think it's just December 😓 I'm not even sure when it started.)

I keep reminding myself that this is about You, Jesus. I keep looking to the joy, peace, and hope that only be found in You. You are my joy, my peace, and my hope. I may not fully understand what's happening within me, but what I know for sure is that I want Your presence.

I'm also trying my best to be present for my family, even though part of me longs for isolation.

What would my life look like without You? I believe it would be far worse than this.

Above all, I thank You because You are with me. You know me. You know my name—and that is more than enough. Thank You for continually reminding me that You are the reason for this season.

Thank You, Jesus. I know that none of the things happening in my life can truly compare to what You have done for me on the cross. The struggle is real, and so are You.


Thank You for loving me...


I guess I still go back to the gift I mentioned last year, the one I said I wanted to give to You, and that is: may this heart desire You more than anything.

Even in my confused, stuck, or distant days, there is always something to be grateful for. Thank You for being with me. :)

Grateful not just for today ^^. I love You.


your silly daughter,

Love,
shek :)


P.S just some of my December random thoughts… and there's more to come!


"For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given… and his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." — Isaiah 9:6


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